On Ayu's Live Concerts

I've decided to scour the internet in search of all of Ayumi Hamasaki's recorded live concerts. This includes Countdown Lives of all years and all Concert, Dome, Arena and Asia Tours. Yes, it's been quite a task, but I'm doing well so far. I've got almost every CDL. My computer is not liking me right now. I keep having to transfer unneeded documents to my external hard drive to make room for the videos. LOL. I will manage.



Ayu's Charity T-Shirt


The t-shirt will go on sale this Thursday, and will only be sold for a few days! Be sure to order!


On Obsession

I've become so personally involved with the events in Japan to the point where it's giving me a headache. If I were my friend, I would slap myself. I really need to get myself together. This isn't healthy. I can't stop talking about it. I'm sure my boyfriend has heard enough, haha. The ringing in my ears, the screaming in my sleep... UGH! This isn't right! I just need to disconnect~ fall into mindless thought and do nothing.
Thank goodness spring break is next week. I hope I make it!


Update on Japan

So completely devastating, I want to go there and help with relief efforts with my own hands. I truly do. Donating is not enough for me. I want to search among the rubble for survivors. I pray for Japan~



On 3/11/2011

This earthquake in Japan has consumed me. I just cannot accept such a tragedy. It just disgusts me.

Please, please everyone. Be strong, be safe, and stay with your loved ones.



On Lent

A few classmates of mine were discussing Lent this morning, to which I had completely forgotten about. I don't affiliate myself with Catholic beliefs anymore, but it made me really think about what Lent means. You give up something you love for 40 days. But why?

If you truly want self-betterment, then do it for the sake of yourself. Do it because you want to be healthy, or because you're trying to quit an addiction, not because you think God thinks you should. Care about yourself for once.
I truly never understood the value of praying to God, offering your sacrifices to him, and living for him. I attended a Catholic school for firth grade through fourth grade, and even then I remember religion being boring and senseless. Plus, attending church every week was the most dreadful thing I never looked forward to. I've always had the belief that no one should tell you how to live your life except yourself. This has gotten me into many quarrels with my parents, but I refuse to recognize a tradition that is passed on just "because my parents did it, and their parents did it" and so on. That's dumb.

Do I believe in God? Maybe. I'm not saying no, I'm not saying yes. But I choose not to live by age-old traditions created by sexist and closed-minded critics.


PS: It's Ash Wednesday. I ate bacon. Buhuhu


Day 11

Day 11- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself

Modeled after...

Dedicated to someone beyond the sea...

On Drug Use



On Androgyny

Emma Watson
Truly beautiful, isn't she? I absolutely adore this look on Emma, much more than long hair. She was born to wear a boyish, yet feminine look. She looks hot.

I truly admire androgyny. I wish I looked more androgynous. I think I would look terrible with short hair. My face is too long.
I occasionally daydream of being a man and the things I would do if I were. How I would dress, what kind of women I'd like, how I'd style my hair... I picture it often. I would be a hopeless romantic. I would want women to melt at the sight of me. But of course, I'd be a one-woman man. Sorry, ladies.



On Fortunes

Somewhere there is someone writing sayings, silly sayings that may mean nothing on the surface. Their life has brought them there, through series of events, both happy and sad. Do they secretly wish that someone would send them a fortune, to which they would change their life accordingly? Are they waiting for a clue? No one knows their true calling, do they?
One night, particularly on a night where you don't feel like sticking to any diet you've minimally attempted and crave the taste of the General, you get a small order of food from our local Chinese restaurant for two. After eating, you open the fragile sweet cookie that contains that plain piece of paper. Of course, you read the back first. "Learn Chinese. Chicken,  Jī" But your fortune, that is something that sticks with you for days, to which you refer to again and again. 

What can you say for this? There are so many ways to interpret fortunes, and that is why I love them. They are cryptic and beautiful.


On Simplicity

Who can't adore the innocence of babies? Their life is the best, the most innocent and pure. We surround ourselves with things that we want to make us happy, but all we need is each other.

Day 9 & 10

Wow, sorry. I have been SO swamped with schoolwork XD

Day 09- Five things you want to see change


I really want to see my family get mentally healthy. 
I really want to be less lazy.
I want money to stop being the biggest issue in the entire world. Can't we appreciate each other?
I want to be more comfortable with intimacy.
I want to stop having headaches

Day 10- A dream you had this past week described in detail.
Oh geez. Every single night I have a freaking weird dream... but here's last night.
For some reason, me and a bunch of other students from my research methods 1 class with Dr. Fallon were at Dr. Fallon's house. It was pretty late at night and Dr. Fallon was sending us home. I hung around for a while and just went through her house, looking at things. I looked out of the window in front and saw an old lady sitting in a car, STARING inside. I looked away quickly, thinking I had just seen something from my imagination. I looked again, and the lady was saying something, but I couldn't hear. Suddenly, Dr. Fallon came out to get the old lady, her mother I suppose? When she went out to get her, suddenly the old lady SLAMMED the gas, slamming the garage and running over the hood of my car. I was so pissed XD


Day 7 & 8

Day 07- Favorite cover of your favorite song

I wouldn't say that this is my favorite (I have too many) but this pair does AMAZING piano covers of Ayumi's songs... I just wish they had better quality microphones! Ahh!

Day 08- Someone you think would make a good president
I'm totally not the person to ask when it comes to politics. Honestly, I have no idea. I'm not going to be a child and say "OMFG I WANT WILL SMITH TO BE PRESIDENT LOLOLOL" because clearly it takes someone who is objective, planful, open minded, honest, and patient (not to say Will Smith isn't this way, you know what I mean, right?). The ideal president would understand his/her people's wishes and abide to them as best as they could. I don't think the ideal president exists.